Mistakes Ei?

Chasing after someone who never did, and

never will, care about you in the same way.

Hmmm. Chasing? How do you exactly define chasing? 
Running after the person?
Tailing the person wherever he/she goes?
Always looking out for him/her?

IF this is HOW you define IT then, I'M NOT CHASING anybody.
Yet, the moment I read this statement, I felt guilty as charged.
Does constantly looking at the person considered chasing?
Does constantly wanting to see the person considered chasing?
Does wanting to see the person smile considered chasing?
I don't think so. But still the feeling remains.

It really sucks feeling this way.
It even sucks more when you don't know what could possibly cause you to feel this way.
I know I don't love him. I'm sure I don't. 
I can tell you that in a heartbeat.
I guess, infatuation? Obsession? 
But really, do you feel a genuine and non-malice concern when you're only infatuated or obsessed?

It hard when you don't understand what you're feeling.
I myself don't like the feeling of not knowing a very conscious part of myself.
It makes me anxious. It makes me weak.
And I can't afford to be weak. No, not now. Not ever.